Milkman's Reflections - Jan 3 - Insanity

Milkman's Reflections - Jan 3 - Insanity

Insanity
If we have any doubts about the need for a renewal of sanity in our lives, we’re going to have trouble with this step. Reviewing our First Step should help us if we’re having doubts. Now is the time to take a good look at our insanity.
Did I believe I could control my using? What were some of my experiences with this, and how were my efforts unsuccessful?
What things did I do that I can hardly believe I did when I look back at them?
Did I put myself in dangerous situations to get drugs?
Did I behave in ways of which I’m now ashamed? What were those situations like?
Did I make insane decisions as a result of my addiction?
Did I quit jobs, leave friendships and other relationships, or give up on achieving other goals for no reason other than that those things interfered with my using?
Did I ever physically injure myself or someone else in my addiction?
Insanity is a loss of our perspective and our sense of proportion. For example, we may think that our personal problems are more important than anyone else’s; in fact, we may not even be able to consider other people’s needs at all. Small problems become major catastrophes. Our lives get out of balance. Some obvious examples of insane thinking are the belief that we can stay clean on our own, or the belief that using drugs was our only problem and that everything is fine now just because we’re clean. In Narcotics Anonymous, insanity is often described as the belief that we can take something outside ourselves-drugs, power, sex, food-to fix what’s wrong inside ourselves: our feelings.